A thing to forget.

I hate when I realize, during the night...
when I'm all curled up tight..
and have allowed my mind..
to wonder where it might...
- How much i miss you..♥ 

                                                                                                                               I miss just going out...

to see, hold, and kiss you..
I miss how I felt - so loved,

Far Away . . .</3

wanted, needed, adored too..

I realized now that I must forget..
all these things I miss...
your warm secure embrace
your sweet, heart-melting kiss ♥

I must forget the love we once knew..
and remember you have these feelings..
that I wish could be renewed !

I have to ignore all the songs
that have ever reminded me of you : (
because then I spend another moment...
where I cry all night long - I'm blue !

 ...

I have to forget the way..
I memorized your walk..
and I ignore the memories..
of how we used to talk .....

I have to erase from my mind..
all the things you used to say..
since those resounding words..
only remind me that you walked away : (

I have to forget your laugh...
and I have to forget you sideways grin....
and your dimple on the one side..
and the way you catch my spin !

I have to ignore the way it felt..
to remember the way you held me tight..
cause it will only cause me
more and more pain every night..!

I have to erase the time..
and how it went by so fast..
I see now that our love..
has become something of a distant past !

I ignore the fact that you promised
you wouldn't leave me-not ever
because now that you're gone
I fear you're gone forever : (

* Asphyxiated *

There's such a thing as holding on ..

You can love so deeply, and find it gone ..

The things you cherish are soon to leave ..

I told you once looks can deceive !!

The memories so bittersweet ,

My thoughts for you, they aren't a treat ..

You promised me, but surely forgot ..

The flowers told me you loved me not !!

                                                       The sun, it faded into the night,

And the tears they fell like rain from the sky !!

I held you so tightly, never letting go ..

I promised myself that your love would show !!

But like I said looks do deceive,

I never thought my love would make you asphyxiated !!

# You never meant anything but, I still believed # 

The stars I wished on they never fell ..

The pennies I tossed got lost in the well  ..

The flowers I tore so graciously apart ..

So many things wasted on a broken heart   </3

.bRoKeN.

God Bless .

Flow ~ ~

.. Sitting in the corner of room ..
.. Forbidding traces of light to gloom ..
.. In beautiful traces of light to bloom ..
.. Absence of you make me assume ..
.. You linger in my thoughts, reminding me your letters of past ..
.. Your handwriting and craft.. beauty hidden in the essence of your draft ..
.. and the pleasure it made me to go through those arts !!


.. Time change its pattern to flow, start to move opposite and slow ..
.. Reality merge in the sands of time.. fantasy stand in the moment of chime ..
.. Am the same ..soft , beautiful, breakable and fragile ..  
.. But 'YOU' have change from good to undefined ..


.. Time ceased, tears went ice.. your missing melts slowly in my eyes ..
.. Couldn't fight back anymore, how touch of yours .. 
.. Brought thrills and strength in me ..
.. Extending hands to prevent you from getting free .. 
.. You vanish in darkness , slips like sand from hands ..


'STAY PLEASE', don't go so soon.. wait till the glowing of the moon !!
 I swear, no matter what, your place will always be the way as it was before ..

: | 

! How Could !

hUrTeD

How Could The One I Gave My Heart To, Break My Heart So Bad ?

How Could The One Who Made Me Happy, Make Me Feel So Sad ?

Wont Somebody Tell Me? So I Can Understand. . . </3

If You Love Me, How Could You Hurt Me Like That ?

How Could The One I Gave My World To, Throw My World Away ?

How Could The One Who Said I Love You, Say The Things That Way ?

How Could The One I Was So True Too, Just Tell Me Lies ?

How Could The One I Gave My Heart To, Break This Heart Of Mine ?

Tell Me ..

How Could You Be So Cold To Me ?  When I Gave You Everything. .

All My Love, All I Had Inside.

How Could you Just Walk Out The Door ?

How Could You Not Love Me Anymore ?

I Thought We Had Forever. . .

I Cant Understand. . .

And Now I am Here All   'ALONE' . . !

Remembering Your Lies . . .

 . bRoKeN  aGaIn .

. Love Dies .

Locked

 I feel like the floor has dropped beneath me,
I try to go on, but my eyes can’t see :(
Tears lie beneath the surface, threatening to spill !
It’s when I’m wounded that you go in for the kill . .
Every lie you spread, every little remark ,
Is just like another stab in my heart </3

It’s not enough for you to see me die a little on the inside . .
You have to see me broken down and tossed aside !
You go around wondering why nobody likes you !
But is it really such a mystery? They all see the real you . .
They all know that if they anger you, you’ll go behind their backs . .
You’ll spread rumors about them, and never state the facts !

All the lying and backstabbing ,
You don’t know how it feels, you’re not understanding !
You act like I’m a slave you can command . .
When I try to fight back, I get a reprimand !
I used to be fooled by you, I thought you were nice . .
But your heart is as cold as a sculpture made of ice !

true..

I’m ashamed to say that I once loved you, I felt so sure. .
But I couldn’t see past the person I thought you were !
When you loose love, only half of you remains alive !
I thought it was a love that could last forever, a love that could thrive..
I look into your eyes now, and all I see are lies !
But I guess that’s what happens when love dies !!!

                          ♥ </3

Feeling the Pain

You ripped up my heart ,
You tore it to shreds...
All that was left...
Is finally dead...!

I told you I loved you ♥
But you didn't care...
You ripped off my shield.
My heart was left bare..  : (

At first my feelings,
I didn't wish to share..
I took a chance !
Call it a leap of faith !

You let me fall...
I fell from grace...
You stand there laughing...
Was it only your game...?!

 

I called out your name !
But you never came..
I know this is short..
No real story to tell.

I wanted to talk..
I wanted to yell..
But you just walked away,
You got into your car,
And you left me...

Torn up on the sidewalk.
With so many things I want to say...
I stay quite and just let you leave..
No big deal,
You may have guessed..

To you, yeah maybe..
But me, now I'm a mess !
You ripped up my heart : (
Your tore it to shreds !
And whatever was left ,
I promise you, is dead.

If these walls could talk .

If these walls could talk,
you'd know my body is dead . . 
my mind has been taken over,
that's why I am so scared,
I can't control it !
anger is making me blind,
I've been left here on my own . .
chained to a hate of some kind. .

If these walls could talk,
you'd know about my fears,
about all those nights I screamed for help,
about all my fallen tears . . </3
You'd know about the demons. .
haunting me at night,
you'd be able to help me  !
keep my fire alight !

If these walls could talk . .
they would say that it's all right,
God sends His angels . .
to look over me at night.
They'd encourage me,
say though I am alone !
it doesn't mean I'm on my own. . . 
He watches me, from above. .
and showers me with all his love,
if only these walls could talk . . .
they would tell you about how strong I am now !